6 weeks and growing.

Dear Simon,

6ish weeks ago I had no idea what was in store for me as my job as mom was just beginning. Life threw us for a whirlwind adventure those first few weeks – the NICU and then surprise doctors visits left daddy and me feeling unsettled and exhausted, but you seemed un-phased, rolling with the punches.

For a couple of weeks after all of the medical stuff was done it felt like we were making progress with sleep and feeding schedules (sleeping in 4-5 hour chunks at night!) but then the progress slowed and sleep has taken a few steps backward.

Sometimes I cry in the middle of the night and that isn’t fair to you and I’m sorry. I know that you can’t control when you wake up or when you’re hungry, I get hangry too :).

Even at those wee hours I love that you just want to snuggle.

When you smile at me when I come in to pick you up or when we sit in the chair to eat, both of our tears stop. I will do many ridiculous things to earn your smiles or dry your tears – something tells me that this is just the beginning.

When you’re the fussiest daddy seems to have a knack for swinging you high and bouncing you fast. Sometimes it’s the only thing that calms you. We are thankful for daddy.

And daddy and I are thankful for you. That you chose us as parents. I wouldn’t change my situation for the world. I (we) love you Simon, more than I thought possible. Being your mommy is going to be my proudest accomplishment, I know it.

I love you to the moon and back. Thanks for rolling with the punches and letting me be your mommy, even when I have so much to learn.

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  1. I am so confused why I don’t get email notifications any more. Simon is adorable. Seriously, seriously adorable. I showed Sasha the photo with the rattles on his wrists and ankles (where did you get those?? I want!) and he said, “Doesn’t Simon look like the male version of Isla?” I’m not even kidding! They definitely make some of the same facial expressions. I just laughed because it furthers our twin situation.

    Keep posting pictures! Simon loves his stripes and I love that cute face.