I haven’t run in about a week because every time I start I just want to stop. It doesn’t feel right and I’ve lost my oomph. Last night before bed, I decided that I was going to get up early this morning and go out for a run. I didn’t discourage myself by setting a pre-determined destination, I just said that I had to go out.
So I did.
This morning was COLD. 36 degrees. I put on long sleeves, long pants, a hat and light weight gloves and I went out.
I walked for a few minutes to warm up and then I started running, but I couldn’t actually run. It was the weirdest shuffle walk I have ever done. I stopped, I stretched a bit and I tried again. Same thing.
Discouraged at this point, I walked more.
My knee feels totally fine when I am walking. It’s been hurting a bit at boxing / kickboxing, but only when we’re jumping rope or doing sprints.
I finally was able to run a bit this morning, but it didn’t feel good. I’d run a block, walk, run a block, walk. I was getting annoyed and needed to get home before J left for work (I didn’t take keys), so I only did about 1.3 miles. I ran less than 1/2 of it.
I know that my body is telling me to stop running for awhile. The last thing that I want is to F-up my knee even more and end up with a bigger problem.
But I struggle…
I worked so hard to be able to run 3+ miles. It is grueling and painful in a way that I didn’t understand before. It’s also really addicting. Not being able to run even a mile? On my worst days I could at least run a mile… it just hurts. My knee feels like it’s giving out.
I can see how people get depressed when they have been runners their whole lives and then all of the sudden can’t do it. Pretty much the only thing that doesn’t hurt my knee is the elliptical, biking and swimming. Yes, I could do those things, but I don’t feel the same as I do after running or boxing. The intensity is there and I can’t push myself the same way.
I never thought I’d get upset by not being able to run. For a few weeks I thought maybe it was a “run through it” type of pain, but in actuality, I think it’s a bum knee. I am not giving up until I talk to my doctor at the end of the month… maybe it just needs some rest and then I can get back out on the proverbial horse. Until then, I’ll just keep trying. Or at least walking.
I may try the treadmill, but last week I tried that and because I am doing a shuffle start (for who knows why / how), I can’t get my legs to go as fast as the treadmill. Flying off of the treadmill in the middle of the gym would really be a bruise to my ego.
So here’s hoping that my bum knee becomes less bum very quickly. Google tells me that weak thighs can be a cause of knee pain for runners (in addition to 100s of other things)… better get my squats going.